I haven't posted here since 1-1/2 years ago, but there's been a lot that's been going on.  Firstly, The Lord was so kind to me December 23, 2012 right before midnight.  I came home from my old friend Jenny's home around 11:30pm and I got out of my car and was walking towards my house in Ohio.  Well, one of the homeless street girls, Tammy, was walking on the sidewalk and started talking to me, asking me if I was ready for Christmas.  (I was acquainted with her since earlier that year when The Lord put her in my path several times, which was a sign to me to pray for her, and then I didn't see her until a few months later at Walmart with her sister when she told me she had died and was resuscitated back to life and cleaned up from all the street stuff like sex infections and drug addictions.  But then she went back on the street after a few months after that.  As of right now, I haven't seen her for a long time and I hope she is well.)  So we chatted for a little bit and she asked me for some money so she could get her little boy a present.  I was sad and said that I didn't have any money to donate or to take care of her, and I went on to tell her of my desire to start a ministry to put Jesus' name in lights and call it St. Mary @ Jesus' Feet right there on Dixie Highway so the street girls can feel God's love and hear about Him and Jesus and somehow get them off the street.  When Tammy heard me say Jesus, she said "I love Jesus."  And I just began to weep and bawl my eyes out and she tried to comfort me and said, "Don't cry.  Don't cry."  I think I even put my head on her shoulder and cried, I'm not sure.  But then I had to go back into the house and go to bed.  When my  head hit the pillow I saw with my spirit eyes an angel's face side view or profile of a face and then it turned to me and smiled really big from ear to ear showing me his teeth, and of course just then I was reminded I had $5 in my pocket I could had given to Tammy.  So I tried to find her for the rest of my time in Ohio, but I couldn't find her.  Then when I traveled back to Florida, my friend was in physical rehab and eventually she decided to put me in her will and make me her beneficiary.  Was it God's angel who made that happen?  I told Mariann I wanted to help the least of Jesus' brethren and sisters, especially those homeless and who are little in the eyes of the world and even little in the eyes of supposedly Christian people.  I was very sad when my friend died, and my brother helped me put it in a irrevocable special needs trust, with my hopes that I could use what grew from that to minister to the least of The Lord's brethren and sisters, especially His sisters.  At the time being the estate is still in probate, so I give it all to The Lord Jesus Christ.  I still want to minister to Jesus where He wants me to help.  So far all I'm good for is nothing.  I'm retaking a college course that I got an F in around 1999 because I stopped attending and forgot to withdraw.  Right now I'm pulling an A+, but I don't know how well I'll do on my second test in a few days from now.  I used to develop my gifts and talents, but haven't sang, wrote, or drawn, or painted in a long time.... Savior, save me.

CHANGES

January 21, 2016.  I've deleted my post because I value my friends and want them back in my life with all their flaws, which makes them perfect to me.  I will pray for them if they are in danger of hell and damnation and I will ask God to help me minister to them and impart some sort of gift of whatever they need for their eternal salvation and help to live down here on earth.  Savior Lord Jesus, forgive me.  Becoming Catholic seemed to alter my thinking of old friends who got me through after the Catholic Church and other "churches" failed me.  Help me to love more, and take away any and all hatreds out of my heart that I have learned from religion.  You did not teach me this when I sought Your face while I stayed away from churches who lacked love for me, the least of Your sisters and brethren.  I hope you boot those people, who booted me out of church, out of your Heavenly Home and City and keep me with You.  Savior, Save me.  Amen.

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Back on Weight Watchers again...

Hey. Back in March or April I had quit Weight Watchers because I got so worn out and weak. I don't know if it was because I was not eating right or if I was over-zealously walking too much. So now I am on Weight Watchers again; this time I'm taking it easy. Also I am back home in Ohio for the holidays. Mom and I found that my sister trashed our home while we were at our other home in Florida for the past three years. She used our house here in Ohio for a storage place to keep all her junk that she took out of her home after she divorced her husband, all the while she lived with her boyfriend. Mom and I also found out that my 12-string Takamine acoustic guitar and keyboard are missing. My sister said that there was a break in when the power was out, but there's no evidence that there was a break-in. She did not call the police, nor did she call the insurance company. Her boyfriend has been a delinquent all his life and was in jail/prison for a couple of years or more, so I feel like there is some foul play involved. The reason is that not only did my sister know the code to the alarm, but so did her boyfriend. So Mom and I don't trust either one now. We changed the code to the alarm and the password and the contact information. Next step is to change the locks. We are waiting for my brother to come over and help us with changing the locks. In the meantime, besides concentrating on my weight-loss, Mom and I are waiting for the right time to report all this to the police; however, we are waiting to find out what my sister did with all the gold bullions that my father bought for all his children. My sister did quite a number on my mother when my sister switched the bank deposit box in her name. We don't know if she got a new box and put all the contents of Mom's box in hers or just switched names. Thank God I found the bank deposit key in my deceased brother's old suitcase. All this is making me sick and I feel that I need to go back into the hospital, due to my mental illness that I already have, and all this is making it worse; however, I will be worried about my elderly, widowed mother who can barely walk and cannot drive. We've been patient with my sister for many, many years and now Mom is fed up and cannot take it anymore. We feel that my sister is following in her boyfriend's footsteps; not only is he not a Christian, but he is a witch and practices the wiccan religion. I know that witches like to be peaceful and use herbs, but this guy hates Jesus, God the Son. His lack of faith disturbs me. Savior Jesus, Save me!!!

I lost four (4) pounds on my second week at Weight Watchers!!!

HalleluYAH! I weighed in yesterday and I lost four pounds on my second week! I can't wait to lose 100 pounds. Yesterday I celebrated my weight loss by taking Mom to the local Chinese buffet. I was hungry for mixed vegetables. I ate a lot of mixed vegetables, and I was satisfied, but because it was a all-you-can-eat buffet I decided it couldn't hurt to eat a few dumplings.... then rice balls filled with black bean paste. I had a feast! But I didn't feel very good after I got home, so I took a very long nap, probably due to depression. But the good thing is that I didn't eat anything else all day and night. This morning I walked again. This time it took me 50 minutes to walk around the block. Before I left, I was feeling a little funny, like how I felt yesterday. It must had been because it was cold, so I ate breakfast and then put on a jacket and began my walk. I still feel a little weak. So I'll just lie down, or better yet, I will make some lentil soup. Savior, save me!

Happy New Year 2009 and Weight Watchers

Once again a new year arrives and once again I am back on Weight Watchers.  This is my third time on Weight Watchers, being the last time was four years ago.  I really believe that I am ready and willing to burn this fat off of me!  God help me lose this awful weight.  Savior, Save me!

Karaoke!!!

Hey everybody!  I've discovered Karaoke!  Go to http://www.TheSimsOnStage.ea.com

Hope you like my few songs that I've posted here on Blogger.

(If You're Not In It For Love) I'm Outta Here

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Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy

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Let It Be by The Beatles

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Hey, It's Been a While...

I haven't posted since April 2007 so let me tell you what's been up with me.  My doctor urged me to go through with the hysterectomy because there were tumors on my left ovary.  So I went under the knife bravely in the morning of June 28, 2007.  My brother, Carmine, was here to take care of Mom while I was in the hospital.  And he drove over with Mom to see me every day.  It was such a good comfort, and I will always keep them forever in my heart for his sacrifice of not only driving an hour and a half to the hospital in the morning, but also pushing Mom in her wheel chair all over the hospital just to get to my room.  I'm so thankful!  My hospital room was a private one, and I didn't have to worry about disturbing anybody else.  My nurses were the best.  Amber was my first nurse, before they sent me to ICU for having a panic attack.  To briefly explain, I was panicking because something was in my chest near my throat and I thought I was choking.  The doctors said that they probably busted a blood vessel or something when they took the tube out of me before I woke up from the anesthesia.  Then my doctor thought it would be a good idea to stick a tube up my nose and down to my stomach.  When I came back up on the patients' floor I had the worse time with needles.  But God and Jesus got me through it all.  I came back home on July 2nd, and found that Carmine took good care of my computer, as well as Mom; he did most of the cooking for her.  Then about a couple of days after I got home, my sister, Vivian, came down to help take care of me when Carmine left.  She came down with her grandson (my grandnephew) and her dog, Dolly.  They were a comfort too.  We all went places where there was a lot of walking and site seeing, which was a good thing for me to do in order to heal from my surgery.  Granted, I walked slow though.  And I really didn't need to take any pain pills.  God is so good to me.  Jesus, my Savior, truly saved me.

Easter

Easter was a fun time this year. My sister, niece, grandnephew, and my niece's fiance all came down for their Spring Break. Easter Sunday was okay: I tried my best to go to church in Tampa, particularly at the SunDome, but for some reason I was always falling asleep on the road. So I had to pull over and rest my eyes and it still didn't help. I swear, sometimes I think people are praying against me and stopping me from going to church, which I call "witchcraft prayers", meaning they hate me so much that they don't want me in church, which is a non-denominational church. The people praying against me couldn't possibly be Christian, or else they'd love me and accept me in church. Anyway, I turned back around and headed home, and I still had a hard time keeping my eyes open. I had to pull over at least three times. I pray that God through Christ Jesus will give me more power over those people and their witchcraft prayers. I'm Father God, YaWVeH's, child through Jesus, and I am to have power like Moses had power over the witchcraft that he opposed in Egypt. So be it. The Monday after Easter my niece married her fiance. She wanted to be married on the beach, but plans changed because of the rain. So they ended up marrying at the Seminole Hard Rock casino instead. I filmed the whole wedding with my video, and everybody else took pictures. So when we all got home, I downloaded the film and the digital pictures all on my mac laptop and made a nice DVD of the whole thing and made several copies for everybody.

HalleluYAH!

The test results from the colposcopy came back normal! That means they do not have to do the LEEP procedure, where they would have scraped my cervix. HalleluYAH! Jesus does save me!

I did it!

Yesterday wasn't so bad. I went through the colposcopy, but I never want to do it again. I was somewhat comfortable, and the nurse did everything she possibly could for me, and I'm grateful. But when the doctor clipped my cervix, I could feel it. I just thank God that there are no nerves in the cervix or else it would had been worse pain. It just felt like a very bad, bad cramp. I'm praying and asking God to have the biopsy come back normal so they don't have to scrape my cervix. Savior Jesus, save me.

GYN appointment

I've got to wake up early tomorrow morning for my doctor's appointment, but I can't sleep. I'm so afraid of the procedures that the doctor wants to do to me. But my friend, Missy, says that fear is from the devil and I shouldn't be afraid. First, the doctor wants to do a colposcopy on me which is where the doctor takes a microscope up my vagina and looks at my cervix. Second, she might have to do a LEEP which is where the doctor applies anethesia to the cervix with a long needle and then scrapes the dead and stagnant skin off the cervix. I'm scared because I don't want that needle going up my vagina and into my cervix! But if she does the LEEP, I'm going to want some sort of local anethesia, but I just wish it didn't have to be given by a needle. And in addition to all this, I have to go to the lab 2-3 hours before my gyn appointment for a pregnancy test. I suppose my knowing that I'm not pregnant because I'm not sexually active is not a good enough answer for them. I'm going to just tell the doctor that I don't want the LEEP done on my body. That's all. I wonder if this is all happening because of some evil man who wished this wicked situation on me...like a curse; probably from some "religious" fool who hated me. I mean religious, as in religiously says he's not religious yet lies about himself being engaged and married and hates me for liking him because I thought he was single: yes, I'm talking about Carman Licciardello - the "Christian" singer. Anyway.........Savior JESUS, Save me!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everybody! Since my last weblog, I finally bought the MS Office for Mac. I love to use it! It is so cool. Since then, I've moved back to Florida from my summer vacation. There is a British gentleman who is taking an interest in my life story. I hope it does not disappoint him. He's given me an offer I can't refuse! I told Jessica, my niece, all about it. She thought that it was exciting too. He's more interested in doing the film aspect. It was a great reason to buy Office:mac. Also, upon arriving back home in Florida, I switched bedrooms. I now have the larger room for all of my stuff. I had to buy a bookcase. I must have over 100 books covering various subjects. Christmas was quiet this year. It was just Mom and me. I bought her a little calendar with 365 pictures of Italy. Mom mailed some boxes to her cousins in Italy too. The postage for shipping was over $70! I just hope that they got them in time for Christmas. Mom felt bad for not getting me anything for Christmas, so the next day after Christmas we went to Pearl's Art Store to buy an easel for my watercolor painting hobby. I'm hoping to become really good at it. So far I've only painted a few pictures, but only two that I really like. I wish I could do something with my artwork. I've got over 100 designs. Surely, I could embroider, sew, quilt, and stain glass my artwork. It would be so cool.

Today Is My Birthday!!!

Hi everyone. Just want to let you all know that today is my birthday. I'm 43. That means I've got to edit all my profiles which has my age on them. There are several things I did today: 1st, I got my camera and imported the digital film of my grandnephew's 5th birthday party from yesterday into the computer; 2nd, return my friend's call and let her know I'm still in Ohio and that we'll be leaving for Florida this coming weekend; 3rd, received my birthday present from my sister; 4th, went out to Cracker Barrel with Mom and my sister to celebrate my birthday; 5th, got home to spend some time with my niece and grandnephew and to show everybody my new video of Anthony's 5th birthday party on DVD. Now everyone has left and I got some time to spend on my computer. I can't wait to buy some more software for my new laptop computer! I'd like to buy the Office:mac. Can't wait to get it!