GYN appointment

I've got to wake up early tomorrow morning for my doctor's appointment, but I can't sleep. I'm so afraid of the procedures that the doctor wants to do to me. But my friend, Missy, says that fear is from the devil and I shouldn't be afraid. First, the doctor wants to do a colposcopy on me which is where the doctor takes a microscope up my vagina and looks at my cervix. Second, she might have to do a LEEP which is where the doctor applies anethesia to the cervix with a long needle and then scrapes the dead and stagnant skin off the cervix. I'm scared because I don't want that needle going up my vagina and into my cervix! But if she does the LEEP, I'm going to want some sort of local anethesia, but I just wish it didn't have to be given by a needle. And in addition to all this, I have to go to the lab 2-3 hours before my gyn appointment for a pregnancy test. I suppose my knowing that I'm not pregnant because I'm not sexually active is not a good enough answer for them. I'm going to just tell the doctor that I don't want the LEEP done on my body. That's all. I wonder if this is all happening because of some evil man who wished this wicked situation on me...like a curse; probably from some "religious" fool who hated me. I mean religious, as in religiously says he's not religious yet lies about himself being engaged and married and hates me for liking him because I thought he was single: yes, I'm talking about Carman Licciardello - the "Christian" singer. Anyway.........Savior JESUS, Save me!