I lost four (4) pounds on my second week at Weight Watchers!!!

HalleluYAH! I weighed in yesterday and I lost four pounds on my second week! I can't wait to lose 100 pounds. Yesterday I celebrated my weight loss by taking Mom to the local Chinese buffet. I was hungry for mixed vegetables. I ate a lot of mixed vegetables, and I was satisfied, but because it was a all-you-can-eat buffet I decided it couldn't hurt to eat a few dumplings.... then rice balls filled with black bean paste. I had a feast! But I didn't feel very good after I got home, so I took a very long nap, probably due to depression. But the good thing is that I didn't eat anything else all day and night. This morning I walked again. This time it took me 50 minutes to walk around the block. Before I left, I was feeling a little funny, like how I felt yesterday. It must had been because it was cold, so I ate breakfast and then put on a jacket and began my walk. I still feel a little weak. So I'll just lie down, or better yet, I will make some lentil soup. Savior, save me!

Happy New Year 2009 and Weight Watchers

Once again a new year arrives and once again I am back on Weight Watchers.  This is my third time on Weight Watchers, being the last time was four years ago.  I really believe that I am ready and willing to burn this fat off of me!  God help me lose this awful weight.  Savior, Save me!

Karaoke!!!

Hey everybody!  I've discovered Karaoke!  Go to http://www.TheSimsOnStage.ea.com

Hope you like my few songs that I've posted here on Blogger.

(If You're Not In It For Love) I'm Outta Here

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Boogie Woogie Bugle Boy

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Let It Be by The Beatles

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Hey, It's Been a While...

I haven't posted since April 2007 so let me tell you what's been up with me.  My doctor urged me to go through with the hysterectomy because there were tumors on my left ovary.  So I went under the knife bravely in the morning of June 28, 2007.  My brother, Carmine, was here to take care of Mom while I was in the hospital.  And he drove over with Mom to see me every day.  It was such a good comfort, and I will always keep them forever in my heart for his sacrifice of not only driving an hour and a half to the hospital in the morning, but also pushing Mom in her wheel chair all over the hospital just to get to my room.  I'm so thankful!  My hospital room was a private one, and I didn't have to worry about disturbing anybody else.  My nurses were the best.  Amber was my first nurse, before they sent me to ICU for having a panic attack.  To briefly explain, I was panicking because something was in my chest near my throat and I thought I was choking.  The doctors said that they probably busted a blood vessel or something when they took the tube out of me before I woke up from the anesthesia.  Then my doctor thought it would be a good idea to stick a tube up my nose and down to my stomach.  When I came back up on the patients' floor I had the worse time with needles.  But God and Jesus got me through it all.  I came back home on July 2nd, and found that Carmine took good care of my computer, as well as Mom; he did most of the cooking for her.  Then about a couple of days after I got home, my sister, Vivian, came down to help take care of me when Carmine left.  She came down with her grandson (my grandnephew) and her dog, Dolly.  They were a comfort too.  We all went places where there was a lot of walking and site seeing, which was a good thing for me to do in order to heal from my surgery.  Granted, I walked slow though.  And I really didn't need to take any pain pills.  God is so good to me.  Jesus, my Savior, truly saved me.

Easter

Easter was a fun time this year. My sister, niece, grandnephew, and my niece's fiance all came down for their Spring Break. Easter Sunday was okay: I tried my best to go to church in Tampa, particularly at the SunDome, but for some reason I was always falling asleep on the road. So I had to pull over and rest my eyes and it still didn't help. I swear, sometimes I think people are praying against me and stopping me from going to church, which I call "witchcraft prayers", meaning they hate me so much that they don't want me in church, which is a non-denominational church. The people praying against me couldn't possibly be Christian, or else they'd love me and accept me in church. Anyway, I turned back around and headed home, and I still had a hard time keeping my eyes open. I had to pull over at least three times. I pray that God through Christ Jesus will give me more power over those people and their witchcraft prayers. I'm Father God, YaWVeH's, child through Jesus, and I am to have power like Moses had power over the witchcraft that he opposed in Egypt. So be it. The Monday after Easter my niece married her fiance. She wanted to be married on the beach, but plans changed because of the rain. So they ended up marrying at the Seminole Hard Rock casino instead. I filmed the whole wedding with my video, and everybody else took pictures. So when we all got home, I downloaded the film and the digital pictures all on my mac laptop and made a nice DVD of the whole thing and made several copies for everybody.

HalleluYAH!

The test results from the colposcopy came back normal! That means they do not have to do the LEEP procedure, where they would have scraped my cervix. HalleluYAH! Jesus does save me!

I did it!

Yesterday wasn't so bad. I went through the colposcopy, but I never want to do it again. I was somewhat comfortable, and the nurse did everything she possibly could for me, and I'm grateful. But when the doctor clipped my cervix, I could feel it. I just thank God that there are no nerves in the cervix or else it would had been worse pain. It just felt like a very bad, bad cramp. I'm praying and asking God to have the biopsy come back normal so they don't have to scrape my cervix. Savior Jesus, save me.

GYN appointment

I've got to wake up early tomorrow morning for my doctor's appointment, but I can't sleep. I'm so afraid of the procedures that the doctor wants to do to me. But my friend, Missy, says that fear is from the devil and I shouldn't be afraid. First, the doctor wants to do a colposcopy on me which is where the doctor takes a microscope up my vagina and looks at my cervix. Second, she might have to do a LEEP which is where the doctor applies anethesia to the cervix with a long needle and then scrapes the dead and stagnant skin off the cervix. I'm scared because I don't want that needle going up my vagina and into my cervix! But if she does the LEEP, I'm going to want some sort of local anethesia, but I just wish it didn't have to be given by a needle. And in addition to all this, I have to go to the lab 2-3 hours before my gyn appointment for a pregnancy test. I suppose my knowing that I'm not pregnant because I'm not sexually active is not a good enough answer for them. I'm going to just tell the doctor that I don't want the LEEP done on my body. That's all. I wonder if this is all happening because of some evil man who wished this wicked situation on me...like a curse; probably from some "religious" fool who hated me. I mean religious, as in religiously says he's not religious yet lies about himself being engaged and married and hates me for liking him because I thought he was single: yes, I'm talking about Carman Licciardello - the "Christian" singer. Anyway.........Savior JESUS, Save me!

Happy New Year!

Happy New Year everybody! Since my last weblog, I finally bought the MS Office for Mac. I love to use it! It is so cool. Since then, I've moved back to Florida from my summer vacation. There is a British gentleman who is taking an interest in my life story. I hope it does not disappoint him. He's given me an offer I can't refuse! I told Jessica, my niece, all about it. She thought that it was exciting too. He's more interested in doing the film aspect. It was a great reason to buy Office:mac. Also, upon arriving back home in Florida, I switched bedrooms. I now have the larger room for all of my stuff. I had to buy a bookcase. I must have over 100 books covering various subjects. Christmas was quiet this year. It was just Mom and me. I bought her a little calendar with 365 pictures of Italy. Mom mailed some boxes to her cousins in Italy too. The postage for shipping was over $70! I just hope that they got them in time for Christmas. Mom felt bad for not getting me anything for Christmas, so the next day after Christmas we went to Pearl's Art Store to buy an easel for my watercolor painting hobby. I'm hoping to become really good at it. So far I've only painted a few pictures, but only two that I really like. I wish I could do something with my artwork. I've got over 100 designs. Surely, I could embroider, sew, quilt, and stain glass my artwork. It would be so cool.

Today Is My Birthday!!!

Hi everyone. Just want to let you all know that today is my birthday. I'm 43. That means I've got to edit all my profiles which has my age on them. There are several things I did today: 1st, I got my camera and imported the digital film of my grandnephew's 5th birthday party from yesterday into the computer; 2nd, return my friend's call and let her know I'm still in Ohio and that we'll be leaving for Florida this coming weekend; 3rd, received my birthday present from my sister; 4th, went out to Cracker Barrel with Mom and my sister to celebrate my birthday; 5th, got home to spend some time with my niece and grandnephew and to show everybody my new video of Anthony's 5th birthday party on DVD. Now everyone has left and I got some time to spend on my computer. I can't wait to buy some more software for my new laptop computer! I'd like to buy the Office:mac. Can't wait to get it!

Prison Pen Pals

For the past few months, I've been corresponding with a friend of mine who is in prison for possession for cocaine. If anybody is reading this, please pray for her. She's supposed to get out of prison and go into rehabilitation soon. But the prison is taking it's time in helping her. She's asked me to find information about certain facilities in Georgia. I met this lady at Mt. Paran Church of God way back in 1993. I was a live-in babysitter for her baby, Jordan. I later had to leave Georgia, but I kept in contact with her. She has always led an interesting life that I've never had. She knew everyone in town, and I was drawn to her popularity. Now that she's in jail, everyone has abandoned her. The Lord laid it in my heart to contact her again after all these years. I got on the Internet and tried to find her by looking through Cobb County Jail database. I found her! And I contacted her just in time. She was so happy to hear from me. I actually left my vacation home in Ohio to drive down to Marietta to see her again. She is determined to be through with drugs because she hates the lifestyle. She is so on-fire for God and His Son, Jesus again. I guess she is trying to make up for all the time she didn't have with God all these years. She wants to start a ministry helping women in prison who have nothing.

Birthday Girl!!!

On October 22, 2006 I will be 43 years old. Wow! Time flies fast. I remember when I was a sexy little thing in the United States Air Force always on my own and in no relationship. I was always serving my God and country. I was always in Church. I had a few mentors who looked out for me. Then I was Honorably separated from the Service and I headed to Tulsa. I learned a lot there. I was blossoming into a young woman, trying to find my way to serve God again. Then I went home and I've been dead ever since! I've tried to go back to Oklahoma where I served Jesus, but it seems like my mother and family just keeps me pulled away. I've gotten fat over the years, especially after my major surgery in 1996. I just don't feel as alive as I used to. Depression got the best of me, it seems, especially being thrown out of a church when the person who threw me out was worse than I was in her following Carman. I think I could sue them for it, but I've already got a pension so why bother? They deserve to be sued. All their hatred is despicable; especially towards a sister in Christ...me! When am I going to get my life back? The doctors are wanting to do a hysterectomy on me, so maybe I'll feel vibrant again after they take out my uterus. That's another story. I've not had any babies yet, nor have I been in a relationship that really would matter. This is a terrible life, even though I have The Lord. I feel like a slave to my mother, but she takes good care of me at her ripe age of 81. Being a 100% disabled American veteran wears me out. But I enjoy relaxing and reading and keeping occupied with the computer. I studying Manga at the moment. I've studied web design in the past. And I've also been an artist, as well as a song writer and singer...not professionally though, but enough to know I really enjoy it. I guess I shouldn't complain about my life. JESUS is a very good King and takes care of me just fine.

Marietta, Georgia

I decided to get away from my family this week. I took off to Georgia. Mother was yelling and complaining and making me very, very nervous. So I decided to just take off and forget everybody. I think to myself how grateful I am to be single with no attachments. Anyway, I had a reason for coming down to Georgia. I went to visit an old friend of mine, who just happens to be in jail....again. My family has mixed feelings about me visiting her, but I visited her anyway. I've visited her twice in the past couple of days. She's all fired up for God and wants to live for Jesus again. She swears she's through with drugs and the other stuff that comes with it. She talked all day today about her prayer journal and that she believing God for a short time in jail and a drug-rehabilitation center. I believe that she'll get what she needs and wants. She's so happy where she is though. She's prayed for everybody that needs to come out of her life to get out of her life, so all her bad friends have abandoned her. She is so grateful to God for that. The Lord put Pam in my heart a few weeks ago and I looked for her on the Internet. She was under one of Georgia's prison sites and I looked up the inmate. She was so grateful to get my letters when I first wrote her. I was so afraid that she'd reject me again like the last time I tried to get ahold of her. But this time was different. She said that she received all my messages, but she didn't answer them because I was from God and she wasn't ready to make up with God yet at the time I called her several years before. But she is so ready for God now, and I'm grateful to have her friendship back in my life again. She's really proud of her son too, who is attending drug-rehabilitation center and working to support the funds for it. Well, I've been on base since Wednesday evening and I'm due to leave Saturday, tomorrow, morning. I don't know if I want to stay another day or not though. I was thinking that maybe I should go to church here, like I used to do 10 years ago. But things are different now. I've got a church in Ohio to attend now with people who love me and pastor and his wife always checks up on me. I've been so mad lately though. I left a message on my cell phone saying "I've gone to Georgia and I might just go to Florida. Goodbye." What a terrible message for my pastor to hear when he called to say hello. I'm so afraid to call him back. I guess I have some explaining to do. And through all this, I shrugged off my doctor's appointment at the VA. Time for bed. I slept all day after I went to see Pamela, ate, and gassed up my car. I just got up about an hour ago. Guess I'll just go back to bed. Oh yeah, I did go to Barnes & Noble's Book Store today before seeing Pamela again. I got same old books, except they were marked down at bargain prices this time. Topics: herbs and essential oils. Goodnight. Savior Jesus, Save me!

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Mom and Me

Dear God-man JESUS, please be near to me and save me from death and cancer. SAVIOR, SAVE ME!!!

It's been such a busy time these two months. Mom had surgery on the 28th of March to replace her hip. I've been waiting on her hand and foot. I'm not complaining, I feel pretty good about it, as if it's a feeling of accomplishment. She's always been there for me taking care of me and my needs, now it's my turn to do the same for her. Before Mom got her surgery on her hip, I took some watercolor painting classes at the local college. Now I've got to go back to Ohio. I need my sister and family to be near me, as well as God and His Son, JESUS. I've made a few visits to the Veterans' Hospital lately and all the tests say that I've got a mass or tumor in my cervix, as well as a tumor the size of a tennis ball on my uterus/womb. However, the doctor didn't say what the blood tests revealed. I got so mad at the ontologist/surgeon. I didn't get mad in front of him, but I complained to the VA via the internet. I'm suppose to get an answer within five days. I'm mad because the surgeon didn't have all the information about me and my test results, nor was Dr. Russell there to help me. They deceived me and the surgeon wanted to do another biopsy on my cervix. Na uh!!! NO WAY!!! That hurt!!! Dr. Russell already did a biopsy on my cervix, but the surgeon said that it was from something else. I'm really upset and how things turned out. Needless to say, I declined from the biopsy and went home. I was told to expect to have surgery soon. Mom and I are planning to go back to our family out-of-state. I really can't wait to see my sister, Vivian, and her family, as well as my brother, Michael. It'd be nice to see Carmine too, but he's so far away. He's really concerned about me too. He called after I sent him an instant message to his mobile phone telling him about my health problems.

Curves

Hey. I've been sort of busy these past few weeks. I joined Curves strength-training gym and I really enjoy it. I go every Tuesday, Thursday, and Saturday. I am also taking a watercolor-painting class at the local college. I attend every Monday morning. Mom decided to do her hip-replacement surgery and is schedule in the middle of next month. Vivian and Jessica and the baby will be down here to support her. I really pray that Mom makes it through the surgery. She said that she will probably only be half sedated, being that they'll numb her from her waist down. God have pity and mercy, please! JESUS, save my mother! I'm not writing to my penpals anymore. Somehow we all just stopped writing. I didn't want to keep writing to Scott anymore because it was turning into a sex talk. I really didn't feel comfortable talking like that. I am a woman of God. I don't need that immoral junk. He doesn't even love me! I've been reading a wonderful book by Gloria Copeland, entitled "Blessed Beyond Measure." She talks about how God wants to bless you more than you can imagine. Amen. I also got the famous book by Kevin Trudeau, entitled "Natural Cures." It's very revealing. I bought an updated version of iLife '06 for my Mac laptop. I can't believe it won't let me install it in my computer! I don't know why, but I feel awful if I ask them to take it back. I told the guy that sold it to me that I had a G3, but he was more concerned as to whether or not I had a DVD player or burner. I told him I had a G3 and I can only play DVDs. Maybe I should call them and gripe because the program only works on G4 and above. Oh...........what will I do about my bedroom? I need to buy another bookcase....that's it. In one corner are my chests, with my sewing paraphanalia all cluttered up in front of it. Then on the other wall I have my magazines, my stuffed animals on a little bench, and further on there is my music stuff. Around the corner is my other chest and bookcase with all my books. In front of those I have my artwork stuff, my oils, and God only knows what else.....oh, paper from 10 years ago about me fighting with the government and the United States Air Force. Oh God.....and there are my clothes! I need help.........more like another room! A new bigger home will do........possibly a 5 bedroom house with a den.....that has a bookshelf! JESUS, Savior...save me!

I'm home now in Florida.......

Hey. I'm finally at my winter home in Florida, thank God. It was hard to not eat that much on the road, but I just snacked on a whole package of oreo cookies, some bread slices, and apple, and at the motel I had a bagel with cream cheese and a couple of pastries. Last Monday when I weighed myself, which started my second week on Weight Watchers, I lost 2 pounds....yippee!!! Even after eating all those sweets I didn't gain any weight (unless I was lighter than 208 pounds and I gained up to 208 again). Well, I've made some penpals after signing in and posting on www.military.com. I actually communicate with a couple of Army boys/men. One is a vehicle maintenance mechanic, and the other one is a medic NCOIC (non-commissioned officer in charge) in a hospital. Another guy works for the military in the D.C. area. I haven't been posting in my other blogs for a while so I guess I should start soon. Thank you, Jesus, for keeping me and my mother safe on the road this past weekend.