Birthday Girl!!!

On October 22, 2006 I will be 43 years old. Wow! Time flies fast. I remember when I was a sexy little thing in the United States Air Force always on my own and in no relationship. I was always serving my God and country. I was always in Church. I had a few mentors who looked out for me. Then I was Honorably separated from the Service and I headed to Tulsa. I learned a lot there. I was blossoming into a young woman, trying to find my way to serve God again. Then I went home and I've been dead ever since! I've tried to go back to Oklahoma where I served Jesus, but it seems like my mother and family just keeps me pulled away. I've gotten fat over the years, especially after my major surgery in 1996. I just don't feel as alive as I used to. Depression got the best of me, it seems, especially being thrown out of a church when the person who threw me out was worse than I was in her following Carman. I think I could sue them for it, but I've already got a pension so why bother? They deserve to be sued. All their hatred is despicable; especially towards a sister in Christ...me! When am I going to get my life back? The doctors are wanting to do a hysterectomy on me, so maybe I'll feel vibrant again after they take out my uterus. That's another story. I've not had any babies yet, nor have I been in a relationship that really would matter. This is a terrible life, even though I have The Lord. I feel like a slave to my mother, but she takes good care of me at her ripe age of 81. Being a 100% disabled American veteran wears me out. But I enjoy relaxing and reading and keeping occupied with the computer. I studying Manga at the moment. I've studied web design in the past. And I've also been an artist, as well as a song writer and singer...not professionally though, but enough to know I really enjoy it. I guess I shouldn't complain about my life. JESUS is a very good King and takes care of me just fine.