LOVE

 LOVE.  It evaded me until age 55, during my midlife crisis.  Everyone said that the man I so appreciated at age 55 was meant to prepare me for the next one because I made so many mistakes with him.  And it was merely a long-distance telephone relationship, plus he was 11 years older than I.  Now someone has erased his memory and he's about my age with the same temperament and productive mindset, as if he was the younger version.  This one was a gift from God, the way God broke my icy heart to open up to him and how easy he was to love, until I messed up unknowingly due to a mindset listening to lying voices in my head that he didn't deserve.  Although the Bible says to trust in the Lord with all your heart and put no confidence in man, the loving verses was never meant for hatred of an innocent lover.  Sometimes people don't have due therapy over the years that takes its toll on our beloveds.