4 Days after 60

 Just checking in.  I know I need to make some serious changes in my life before I get any older.  Thank God He has blessed me with youth and restores my youth like the eagles and feeds me with good things to renew my youth.  I know The Lord doesn't look at the outward appearance, but looks at the heart and inner man/woman, but my body and countenance could benefit from losing 145 pounds proportionately.  The build up of fat causes so many ugly, hurtful things to the body.  The only reason why I asked God to make me fat 35 years ago was to repel dirty old men.  But in my mid 50's, during my midlife crisis into my 30th year of celibacy, I didn't realize what desperation was until I was subconsciously transferring my memories of romance with a former fire fighter from the 1990's to my first major music producer.  He was patient with me, as he listened to my stories, purposing to want a relationship with me in the long run.  Anyways, the people around him influenced him against me, or via versa if he wasn't true.  It was that long-distance telephone relationship with him that brought my senses back to ask God for security and body guards instead of fat to protect me from perverts.  So I had to humble myself and repent for acting desperate instead of the Holy Spirit child the Lord made me in His image.  The music producer was fat also, and was impressed with my knowledge and inspirations, especially when I taught him how to avoid starches that helped him lose 40 pounds like I did in 2018.  He was able to see the difference of my body figure in a picture on one of session days.  Anyways, fat needs to melt and loose all it's energy, and I'm standing on scripture where it says that the fat belongs to the Lord.  Leviticus 3:16 "...and the priest shall burn them on the altar as food, an offering made by fire for a sweet aroma; all the fat is the Lord’s."  Besides melting fat, I'm happy that my hair is growing longer.  It's a little thinner than when I was younger, but that's common.  Ever since I've been using the Herbal Essence Argan Oil shampoo a couple times a week, my hair has been thickening.  My hair really grew longer in 2021 when I started drinking collagen power by Plexus in my water.  I stopped due to stomach concerns.  Another change in patterns will be my finances.  I want to quit most of my hobbies and sales.  I only have a few customers that are loyal, so I will keep my websites open, but I'm tired of spending money and making everybody else rich.  God wants to bless me with my compensation, not everybody else.  I've never seen so many jealous people in all my life when they found out my mother and I had a nontaxable monthly income of about $7000 because of retirement pensions and compensations.  They were mean to me when Mom died.  Mom wanted me to live in her homes, since I didn't have any of my own besides the condo, I also inherited, that was supposed to be sold for my music, that got sabotaged by the music producer's girlfriend/daughter along with our relationship.  God will win in the end, and my music producer/ and his girlfriend are not God.  The battle is the Lord's.  It's His music anyways.  God of love.  That's all my music was...love.  Which brings me to another change...friends.  I am being made more aware of fake friends to get rid of, especially the ones feigning to be Christian.  The ones who ask you out to dinner, then change their minds at the last minute without telling you and then say they meeting you the next day and they never call back.  The ones who want your friendship just to get your ideas and inspirations and tell you they'll invite you over when they're prayer room is done and they never call you, but they call everyone else. The two-faced ones who don't defend me to any of their other friends faces nor shut them up and tell them they're wrong.  The vain ones exulting themselves online with all your ideas they got calling you in need in the midnight hour and they thank another friend for being their bestie, and most all of, get rid of the chronic complainers who wear me down, and those who don't have a conscience about lying...  Get rid of those friends.  With friends like them, who needs enemies?  The world acts better and are some are more noble and more trustworthy of Christ's namesake.  I will still crucify them to Christ and pray for their repentance and growth in the Lord and for the Lord to lead them in "paths of righteousness for His Namesake."  But if they are hurting me, they shouldn't be connected to me, until the Lord restores them and converts them from the world.  Sometimes the world is still in "Christians" and they grieve the Holy Spirit, and grieve Him even more when they persecute me by disowning me for correcting them with God's Word against their errors.  I don't need those type of friends who aren't teachable either, until the Lord opens their eyes.  And the other life change would be to get my house in order for the Lord's return, relax like I used to by drawing to intimate worship. music & prayers, and last but not least at all, compose music to my lyrics God keeps giving me.  I haven't died yet.  I just recently signed up as a publisher on ASCAP, so I'll have to learn how to do my taxes once I start making money from the royalties that the ISRC codes will bring in.  God has given me so much in all my 60 years of life.  I can't count it all, but I guarantee there has been at least a million dollars that God has ran through my bank account and I thanked God for every penny!  The Lord got His tithe, and He rewards me and keeps rewarding me for His good pleasure to give me love and mercy for which I was made.  The only Star over me is Christ Jesus.